~ revisited and the damn wind

i thought i had a crush on someone i didn't know. 'turns out i knew someone i didn't know i had a crush on. life never ceases to amaze.

funny that i'm a sailor who hates the wind. i've found out that i'm not alone in this. flying along with the wind filing the sails is one thing. fighting it- biking head-on into it, getting pummeled, blown back, road shit in your eyes... fighting the elements is always a bad idea. any sailor can tell you that. the wind in my eyes makes them run with tears. artificial tears. when i get off the bike and stop, i'm overcome with an inexplicable sadness. it takes me a moment to realize that the physical feeling of crying has given me the emotional side effects. if i ride in the wind enough, maybe crying will give me the feeling of riding.

sometimes technology makes me want to swear like a sailor

i just wrote a long, lovely post about where i am and where i have been. then the computer erased it. FUCK YOU COMPUTER YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!! i don't have the heart to re-write it now.