self inflicted insomnia

it's hot up here in the lighthouse where i sit at a borrowed mac typing my way into another groggy morning. i've been trying to put myself to bed for over an hour now, but somehow it hasn't happened yet. it's that old habbit... staying up because i can, because i'm the only one up right now, because this latenight frame of mind allows me to wallow in my thoughts and daydreams [fuck technicality]. with my brain on overdirve the way it has been lately- the empty bunk i have to look forward to is less than appealing. too much space to think.