welcome to my nightmare

i live in The OC. i wish i could tell you that it is just a tv show, but that is how it is, really. it should be funny, but it's so real it's just not funny anymore. it makes me wonder is it life posing as hell or hell posing as life?
Despite my personal aversion to blogs, being trapped in a strange and somewhat hostile land [orange county] and having little success communicating with the locals, it seems that maybe i should get over it and give this thing a proper go. being non-native i'm not allowed to check out books, but i get 2 hrs free internet a day at the Newport Beach Public Library which is probably the most exciting thing i have going for me right now. that and my bicycle. i'm so glad i have the forethought to bring it along- it is the only thing that keeps me sane. even going out for a beer here just makes me frustrated and angry. maybe it's time to learn from my friends [ahem...kim] and expand my world via internet. of all the tv shows i had to end up living in, it had to be this one.